Should I make him into a completely ugly being or should I keep some of his characteristics? For example should he still have hands, legs, feet or should it all be beastly? I am having second thoughts about his "falling" because I got into his head. His shortcomings, his sin, his temptations I totally identify with. And what would I do if I had the power of angels?
Like Lucifer, my angel was created most beautiful, wise and strongest of all classes of angels. But jealousy and pride took over. Jealously is something I struggle with daily. Hate it!!! He struggled with both jealousy and pride for centuries, he even tried to hold back the first rebellion but now he's starting his own. Yep, a second falling. Oh the pain.
Before I continue with this scene, I will need to pray. That mistake was made last time (no prayer) and pretty strange things happened in my house.
Another interesting note I'll include here . . . a few of my wonderful mentors in my writers critique group, we lovingly call the San Gabriel Valley Inklings, have voiced concern that I don't "turn to the dark side," so to speak. They know I won't but, strange to say, in order for me to write this part of the story I do tend to walk on the darker side. Even just surfing the www for demon pictures is pretty hellish.
In any case, I might have to turn back a few pages and make my beautiful angel someone I never loved. He never had redeeming qualities. Just wicked from the beginning. Sigh!
3 comments:
Sis,
My thoughts. Remember the Wicked One sometimes masquerades as an angel of light. And deception is his name.
Then too, I've thought, for what it's worth, that the opposite of love is often not hate, but indifference.
I'm trusting the good guy wins in your story!
Bob Leger
Thanks Bob. Absolutely, the good guys will win. It will be a high price they pay though. Is all good. I hope.
ooooh, I feel your sadness. Seems to me you're experiencing loss...of a beloved character who you've grown to love. They're often more than characters, especially when they are part of our self or our story. Good idea to pray for protection when you go places where the enemy rules. I stand with you in that prayer.
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