Monday, July 18, 2011
Should I make him into a completely ugly being or should I keep some of his characteristics? For example should he still have hands, legs, feet or should it all be beastly? I am having second thoughts about his "falling" because I got into his head. His shortcomings, his sin, his temptations I totally identify with. And what would I do if I had the power of angels?
Like Lucifer, my angel was created most beautiful, wise and strongest of all classes of angels. But jealousy and pride took over. Jealously is something I struggle with daily. Hate it!!! He struggled with both jealousy and pride for centuries, he even tried to hold back the first rebellion but now he's starting his own. Yep, a second falling. Oh the pain.
Before I continue with this scene, I will need to pray. That mistake was made last time (no prayer) and pretty strange things happened in my house.
Another interesting note I'll include here . . . a few of my wonderful mentors in my writers critique group, we lovingly call the San Gabriel Valley Inklings, have voiced concern that I don't "turn to the dark side," so to speak. They know I won't but, strange to say, in order for me to write this part of the story I do tend to walk on the darker side. Even just surfing the www for demon pictures is pretty hellish.
In any case, I might have to turn back a few pages and make my beautiful angel someone I never loved. He never had redeeming qualities. Just wicked from the beginning. Sigh!
Penned in ink by The Gatekeeper at 3:02 PM